Today I came home to three weird emails. After I tore myself away from Tivo. Which will have to go without saying in the future. I got an email from Keith, his Atom and His Package video was released on a dvd. Then I got an email from Amber, this girl I used to be friends with in high school. After I moved to Vancouver Amber was the first person I became friends with, and within a matter of weeks we were pretty much inseperable. And she was a lot of fun. But she was also kind of crazy. I don't know exactly how, she thought she was manic-depressive, and maybe that's so, but soon I found that I was sort of an enabler. Whenever she felt crazy she turned to me. She had a boyfriend and he was depressed to so she would talk to me instead. And then this all started oppressing me and I had a major freak out, like panic attack couldn't be still going off the deep end. This was before I started medication. Anyway, it was more than that I guess, it's hard to remember now, but the upshot is that I basically broke up with her. One of those weird, rare friend break ups where I basically said that we couldn't be friends anymore. She was upset, I was too, and we went to the same school and had a couple of classes together so it was way weird. So anyway, I got an message via Friendster from her, saying that she saw me at work the other day and that she hoped I was doing well and that she understood why I stopped being friends with her then. It feels so weird, like getting an email from an ex.
Speaking of past relationships, I got another reply to my Nerve personal (which I keep forgetting is still up there). The guy looks like Andy. He's wearing a hat like Andy always used to wear, he's the same height. I dunno about the weight though, I can't really figure that sort of thing out, but I can tell he's pretty big like Andy. Most of me is just really freaked out, but part of me really wants to write back. I think that would be a bad idea though. I can't expect to find another Andy and I hope that isn't what I'm looking for. Of course in this case, it found me.
Posted by minka at April 10, 2004 01:57 AM