Another day that was kind of hard to get through. I did a lot of breathing, in in in until my lungs were full up then out through my mouth until I was empty. But I've still had the pervasive tingling along my back that means bad things. My medication has been upped too so it shouldn't be this bad. Just too many things in my head that slosh around, looking for solutions. I'm listening to Mojave 3 right now, I got their Black Sessions from somewhere and it's gorgeous. It's the first album live. I still like the lines "Would you like who you were, if you met them someplace. Would you recognize the lines on a stranger's face." It doesn't come out as well without the music behind it, but I wonder that. Would I like myself or recognize myself if I was just looking at myself rather than inhabiting my skin. I hear a good song and I can live in the song for a minute and it's better than being me. So many things are better than being me sometimes. I hate this so much. I wish I was normal.
Posted by minka at April 20, 2004 10:05 PM