It's been awhile. I've been busy though. Last week I went up to Seattle to see Belle and Sebastian. The show was really great. And then this week, I've been spending most of my spare time with you know who. It's just so, so good. I can't even think to describe how good things are right now. Still, I get nervous whenever anything good happens to me, like oh no, this is going to end badly. Still I can't care that much, because here and now I'm totally happy and worrying about the future will not make the future less painful, but will hurt my happiness now. It's not the sort of thing that you can store up and save for a rainy day. So I'm scatter-brained at work and in a flighty mood and spending almost no time at home. And for the first time in a long while, I'm hopeful about my future. I just hope that this can last for a little while.
Posted by minka at May 13, 2004 12:30 AM