It's been awhile. I'm still here, sort of. I'm just enjoying the whole having sex thing. And I'm busy trying to get a job. The guy I'm seeing is now the store manager. I need to get out of here really quickly. I've been job shadowing an acquaintence who works at a TV station doing postproduction, and I feel that will turn into something, though maybe not as quickly as I would like. Because I want something now. I'm freaked out that he's going to dump me, or at least say that we can't see each other until I get another job. Which would suck ASS because then rather than pretending to not see him on the side, I would have to be at work with the whole broken heart thing going on, working with the person who broke my heart, and pretending that absolutely nothing is wrong. Sometimes I just stop and like David Byrne, wonder "How did I get here?" It's all written down for posterity so I know how it happened, but it's one of those synapses not firing situations, I can't quite figure out how I reached this point.
I just want something else, somewhere else. I like my life, except for the blatant lie in the middle of it.
So in other news, going to a barbecue today. We have a barbecue going on downstairs as well, for the people in our condo complex. How my house was selected I do not know. I should be there as I'll be the person living here, ALONE next year. I'm really not looking forward to that. I want a roommate or something, I don't like being alone. I might just move out and get an apartment, I don't know. I'm really kind of in flux right now. Hopefully things will sort of settle by the end of the summer.
Posted by minka at June 6, 2004 06:37 PMThanks for updating, kitten! I was worried things had gone sour so it's nice to hear things are well. Good luck with finding a new job
Posted by: Ll at June 8, 2004 03:59 PMhaha you dougie nobody cares about your personal life, why not just go out and sleep with someone to get a job
Posted by: adojg;a at March 5, 2005 01:14 PM