pseudoephedrine, i curse you

(arrrghhhh i just erased a whole long post argghghghghghg)

Oh man, taking pseudofed was a bad. It did fuck all for my headache and now INSOMNIA. Isn't this stuff supposed to make you "drowsy" (or is that allergy meds?) Insomnia means I stay up think about stuff and getting all wound up about it meaning even less like to fall asleep. So I'll just stew thinking about boys and music and feminism and my frustrations when they all interact.

I found a tape made at the Other End (this interests, oh, two of my, um, ten readers?) of one of the on campus bands. My fall semester sophomore year crush!!! My first kiss would be 30 this year. Ay yi yi. ("I feel old" watchpart 324) Looking back I am half disappointed that he didn't take more advantage of the situation of getting a willing naive youn woman alone. I mean physically, because emotionally it was a bit mindfucky which OH HELLO has set a nice pattern for my romantic sexual interactions ever since. I am also being a bit flippant about that because the whole thing could have been very very bad (danger! danger! consent issues!)(ha ha but like my consent since has never NOT been in a nebulous territory)

So I'm up and I'm all, oooh what from my library to read? Rock and Roll Confidential veers into creppy territory. Madonna = good feminist (i.e. one who likes to sleep with men) and NOW = evil. Cris Williamson gets compared to Pol Pot!! Whoa.

Which reminds me Why do the cultural studies hataz always think it equals Madonna studies. Because I don't think she was mention ONCE in any of my classes (well possibly my music course but that was Media and Communication and NOT Cult Stud. Dept proper). But god I wish she had been! Even though the debates are getting tiresome from all angles it would have been some nice relief from Mouffe and Laclau and Negri and Hardt and ARG Levi-Strauss

ME: The recommend Triste Tropique!
AS: Oh my god, I am so sorry

(The only Levi Strauss I wanna know from is the denim guy, thanks)

No wonder I prefer music writing from academic circles rather than the crit/journalism side because what is covering topics I am interested in? Gender affecting music production, consumption, and reception? Really?

Oh I forgot, the gender wars were won and are over now. Being sexy (which is of course converntially sexy, young and busty and skimpy clothes) is empowering. but like others have said before, how many scantily clad young women hold positions of power? Who's in the White House, the Congress, the local assemblies? Who is writing and enforcing laws? Empowered chicks in bikinis! Oh.

And now I am going to stay up and listen to Rank on cassette, shoot me now.

Posted by rosemary at May 02, 2004 02:33 AM